tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4666473867614957722024-03-08T04:04:56.799-08:00Diary of a bored housewifebilliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12295013416153318510noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466647386761495772.post-3078398340615738992009-03-24T01:45:00.000-07:002009-03-24T02:11:15.693-07:00Today I did something terribleHave you ever really hurt someone.<br /><br />Have you done it knowingly.<br /><br />I did last night.<br /><br />I am not sure I wanted to hurt him or why I did it just then.<br /><br />Things have gone so far and they are so out of control that I wanted to hurt somebody back.<br /><br />Lets just explain where i am coning from here.<br /><br />Way back 18 months ago I met someone at a night school class.<br /><br />Where I live in a small town when you go some place you usually know everyone. But this time apal and me went to learn something new - WEB design.<br /><br /><br />She needed to learn as she is self employed, I wanted to learn cos I wanted to be a great novelist and thought I could publish myself on the web.<br /><br /><br />So every week we turned up and learnt a little bit more about HTML.<br /><br /><br />On the 2nd week we had a new guy to the class, he tooj the seat next to me.<br /><br />I had no problem with that and I think we may have said 2 words to each other that night<br /><br />Over the next 7 weeks we always had a chat uring the break and at the last session we all went for a drink afterwards.<br /><br /><br />I never really thought much about it.<br /><br /><br />You see you have to know that since I was 13 I have had a 38 inch chest . By the way I was about 8 stone as well - so no I wasn't fat - I used to look like Jessica Rabbit.<br /><br /><br />So when a guy talks to me it isn't unusual and I just deal with it.<br /><br /><br />After the course finished I think we emailed each other a couple of times and then way back in February we were going to meet for a cooffee in the morning as he had a CD for me.<br /><br />What was really quie funny is that I went inside cos it was freezing and he waited on the corner for me.<br /><br />He went home and I stayed in the coffee shop for 2 hours.<br /><br />Ok so it was really warm and cosy , I had a good book and lots of tea.<br /><br />He was furious - like it was my fault. Thought at the time it was a bit odd.<br /><br />ANyways 2 weeks later we said we would meet for a coffee again but in the pub this time.<br /><br />I was stood at the bar.<br /><br />I had a cold sore - so I was wearing RED lipstick and my hair tied up like a siren.<br /><br />Apparently when he walked in I blew him away.<br /><br />I didn't know this - I carried on pretty much as normal.<br /><br /><br />Like I said guys chat to me all the time. When I mention being married and having 3 kids they usually run for the exit after having one last longing look at my chest.<br /><br />I know the effect my body has on men. I have known and used it when I wanted to for 20 years now. Yes you guys can say BITCH, but lets be honest when a woman flits with you - you get your thrills. I have never seen a guy walk away. I have never seen a guy say no way. You all lap it up. At work I mercilessly tease my boss. He has no idea that I am doing it.<br /><br /><br />So I carrried on chatting to my mate from night school. We talked for 2 hours and had such a laugh. It was a real shame when I had to go - school run!!!!<br /><br />We went to leave and it was thrashing it down, we both laughed and legged it in different directions to our cars. It must have been weeks later before I got another email. Time just rolled on, we were heading to the summer. Not that where I live that makes any real difference- it's alwasys cold. Anyways we kept on chatting via email and before I went away he did some work on the Ds for my kids.<br /><br /><br />He was so sweet he fixed them and brought them round just the day before we went away.<br /><br /><br /><br />you are going to find this weird, but whislt I was away I started to miss him a bit. I went for 3 weeks and just as I was returning he went away for 3 weeks.<br /><br />So all in all I hadn't seen or spoken to him for 6 weeks. SOrry I have just done what the BBC does and repeats itself as if no one can add two numbers together, anyway I started to miss him and emailing him.<br /><br />After the hosl I went back to work and found out that my colleagues were all off sick.<br /><br />Wow it was so busy I was really stressed - so I kept emailing him telling him all the mad stuff that was going on. Literally it went from not emailing more than once a moth to 15 times a day<br /><br /><br />I don't know how it happened - over the course of a week<br /><br /><br />From then on we emailed each other every day constantly. In the morning I used to get up early to read them. Let me say at this point - they were all jokey/ bloggy emails. We were the best of pals.<br /><br /><br />Yes ok so I am naive<br /><br />I thought that all along.<br /><br /><br />Once he told me not to let my husband see them so I said why not? i have always been honest with my husband , he knows I flirt - so does he. To be fair he has lots of friends who are girls. Doesn't bother me.<br /><br />When I told my Pal that he couldn't believe it - he went spare and I couldn't understand why.<br /><br />He had to explain much later. For the record he felt strongly towards me and didn't see us as friends. He wanted something more and I had no idea.<br /><br />I think I am going to stop here for a moment - I want to explain in much more detail what happened next tp my doing something awful. DOn't worry I didn't kill him!!!!!billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12295013416153318510noreply@blogger.com0